Classic Motherfucking Indecision.

Well this latest shot I'v been planning for a bout a week now, but came out with two shots I loved and I was torn for which to post, so I posted both on flickr and will post both here.

This is a manipulation of myself having a conflict with myself. The guy without the Beanie is the high roller/mob boss and the guy with the beanie is supposed to represent someone not doing so well. This is all about money and gambling, something I tend to have a problem with :) Regardless, tell me what you think of each shot :)

The Man Who Sold the World

Initially this was only a shoot for an English project, however it turned out to be so much more. These shots just turned out amazing and I loved it. This was sort of a test for a future shoot I will be doing with Orson, but either way it came out very emotional and having alot more connection than I intended it to. Now I realize I'm not the best photographer by any means, I'm sure many think this is terrible and what not, but I am alright with that simply because this is something I love to do, and this particular shoot turned out amazing, in my eyes at least.

The man who sold the world shot was more of an experiment, but as I looked at it I realized it represents not only me, but many of us. I felt a powerful connection to this shot because it represents internal decay through external activities. How we can be at the top of the world but give it all away and just loose ourselves in the high times of life. Once we get to the top we fall and it hurts, we get back up and eventually repeat this process over and over. There are days, weeks, months at are great, but followed by depression or insecurity. We let ourselves fall into habits which cause us to burn fast, like old movie film. The height of this photo (top of a building) easily represents the world, because the reference I'm making and the song "The Man Who Sold the World" by Nirvana is making when the "World" is mentioned is someones personal world/life. They had it all and gave it away. We repeat such processes over and over. The whiskey and cigarette represent our habits which we love yet end up being the end of us (this is not a statement against either of those things I just used them as symbols).  (The Man Who Sold the World is the shot below).

This next shot was also an experiment and has set off multiple ideas in my mind for future shots, it is probably one of my favorite views of Guangzhou and also just represents an outlook on life or the future. But it's open to interpretation. I did not put this up on flickr, but I am very open to your comments good or bad. :)

Lets get some shit straight right now.. :)

Firstly I want to clarify that I am not depressed. I may come off that way on occasion and by looking at a few of my photos and post you may believe that I am. But in all honesty, I am a happy person. I am fine with my life. People be hatin but I really don't give a fuck. I live my own life, with my own ideas and on occasion like everyone else my own problems. I may be paranoid as hell but I am also probably one of the most hard headed of people as well. None of that shit is depression, its just the feelings I feel inside, and I only express them through photography, I don't go crying to people about them. My political views don't make me a freak, its simply what I have figured out over the past few years.
2. why all the violence? Well...idk, on the inside sometimes I have feelings just like everyone else, but I never go and take action with those. Those are my feelings, and mine to keep. Like a secret :)
3. Yes...I do swear to much, get over it.
4. Why am I blogging, really I have no idea, I guess maybe its for the few followers that I do have, maybe its because I don't like to talk to people about how I feel, much less trust people.
5. I am my own person, I refuse to be molded by society.
6. You don't like my work, please tell me, and tell me why, but no stupid reason like its just not my thing, if its not your thing dont comment, but if you think it really isnt a good shot or concept and what not, please tell me, I love feedback, good and bad. The bad helps make me better, course this is the internet and Im sure there are haters who will say "your gay" well Im no homophob so im cool with that. :)

Football Season

Im really pumped for football season, and some fantasy football. I'll try to have a shot up representing this :)

My Internal Battles.

Recently Iv slumped back into a semi depressed, angry, confused and paranoid state. This shot best describes my feelings to all of this and what its like inside my head. I once heard someone say "All artist are crazy". Maybe not all artist are, but I certainly am. I can't trust anyone, I am just in a state that I need to fight my way out of, and I feel like setting myself on fire-might make a nice picture too.

Anarchism, Revolution and Love

These two were politically inspired shots which I truly love. I realize that they may not be so popular because of the concept. But as an Artist, as an Anarchist this is part of what defines me. This is not how I see Anarchy, or what Anarchy is about. This is simply the way I see revolutionaries looking if a revolution ever did take place. I was told to take these off of flickr by family and friends. I will not bow to someone else. This is my art, this is what I love. Youd have to kill me before I give in to all that.

Haters be Hating.

I'v been told by so many people that I need to take down my violent or shirtless shots.
firstly- grow the fuck up. My shirts off, big fucking deal. Secondly, I express myself on my flickr, through my art, my pictures. Im not going to change my art just because you don't like it. Iv been told by 3 different people to loose the mask. That mask is what makes me. I love the lack of identity I share with some of these. That mask is part of my appearance. Its another version of me in a way. Even when its out of place, its my signature.